Always Who We Used to Be

When you grow up you'll realize that everyone you were using... was really just using you. And when you come to that point, I'll still be here., waiting

i won't be where you left me but somewhere better and it's up to you in the future to meet me at where we were supposed to be in the past

and i know the tears will flow, and our hearts will ache and our minds will question and the light will show us

things we missed when we grew up children's games and angels playthings

but until then I've lost you in the blackness and I'll never find you again until then you are a memory that never happened. and the person i used to love never existed and the girl you knew was only a mirage and the laughs we shared were cries of desperation and the tears we shed mere pleas for forgiveness

and i watch as the fire consumes you as it swallows you whole and leaves me with ashes and i fall as the wind carries the remains of memories shared and hope and pray the only time she ever prayed for you to come back home

i lost you once, but losing him again...

but I'm smarter then that and I'm stronger then her and as the fire took you away it brought me back with one last smile before i let you fade away because i let you pretend to be my dream but what is a dream if nothing more then a pleasant nightmare and you aren't in my nightmares anymore she screams at the moon with one final tear.

I AM HAUNTED!!!

Or at least there are ghosts all around.

So seriously, I was going to do videos about this, but then had 3 realizations:

1. That's super lame.
2. I would never have the camera on me when most stuff happens.
3. Honestly even if it was on video you people wouldn't believe me!

basically where it all started, kimberly crest top story is where you can allegedly see the lady of the house i think her name was mary? Its definitely creepy here and i've heard some EVP from here real or fake i can only tell you what i've seen for myself but if you want i can link the page down below somewhere...

Let me begin by telling you a little story of my "paranormal"...experiences? Eh, I don't know what to call it but OK whatever.


From a young age I was always attracted to strange and different things than other kids were [in the 90's, these days kids are too crazy] anyways, I always have believed in the paranormal. Let me tell you this. I grew up in an extremely conservative household! My mom basically raised me in an extremely Conservative Pentecostal baptist church. I was never exposed to movies or any kind of media that would influence the things that i saw or heard until at least the age of 10!

I've always been able to read people and have always had the craziest deja-vu. Not only that but I've always sensed how different places feel. I know it sounds absolutely crazy,  but is totally true. Being a kid who has no idea what this feeling was and trying to explain it got me labeled as a kid with an overactive imagination, which i mean my imagination is pretty damn good but wasn't the cause behind this stuff.

 I grew up in one of the top 50 haunted cities IN AMERICA! Ir ranks in top 10 most haunted cities in CA and is ranked the top 3 highest population of occult/satanic groups in a particular area [although I'm not sure if this is just in CA or for all of America...] Yes these are real numbers and i only found this out maybe less than a year ago. The city is old, historic, and full of creepy buildings. Honestly, if somewhere were to be haunted it would be Redlands.

Once upon a time my old school decided it would be good to take my class out on a field trip of all the monuments and important/old buildings of any historical value in the city. I was in 1st grade and was either 5 or 6 years old, but I'm going to say 5 because i think it was before my birthday... While visiting our first location i got a weird feeling that i can not even begin to explain. It lasted thoughtout our walk through the bamboo forest, prospect park, and the Kimberley mansion. Being a kid out with my friends on a field trip i thought nothing of it until, that is, while standing in front of a beautiful water fountain i saw something move in one of the windows. Being the church going youngster that i was, i dismissed it as one of the tour guides. So we walk inside this mansion and while everyone is standing listening to the tour guide i notice a table cloth moving around quite a bit, but i figured it was the wind or something and thought nothing more of it. During the trip we went on to visit a few other locations some where i felt a little weird and others where i felt nothing at all. Honestly you guys i can't stress enough how damn innocent i used to be so really nothing strange ever crossed my mind during this whole trip. After finally returning to school from the field trip one of my friends decides to tell me that some of the places we went were haunted. After mildly geeking out [i wasn't really ever afraid of ghosts] and playing with my friends ii forgot about the whole incident.

Since then in certain situations or places i get the same feeling the whole aura feels different sometimes a little , other times alot. Sometimes i see things, other times [rarely] i can hear things and its kind of really creepy but i wouldn't say impossible. To add to it i have always had extreme deja vu. I dream things sometimes even day dream and it will happen within the week. Lately my deja-vu is getting more and more frequent, which kind of creeps me out A whole lot.

What got me started was today while totally alone i heard someone whisper to me, all they said was "hey", i think 2 times. Needless to say it sounds damn crazy, which is why i don't go around advertising it. Because it's not like it happens often but i am a little freaked out and i think it's a good idea to record the things i see, hear, dream or whatever somewhere so maybe someone can see [as if anyone cares lol.] Maybe if these entries get alot of hits I'll move them to another blog [not sure yet] but who knows, maybe I'm imagining it all. Whatever the case its weird and i want to go ghost hunting to see if this is just my head messing with me in cases of stress or if its the real deal, which lets be honest, the latter seems to be the More likely case. Who knows though ?

Anyways that's it for now and until next time much love,

Lauren Nichole a.k.a HYPEZ

Writing Songs

It's been forever and 2 days since I've actually taken my time to write a good song.

Now I'm trying to make it happen and my mind has been a blank. I'll admit I've had some good ideas but how....where, does it all connect?

I  like to go off of my experiances, but I'm tired of writing about losing friends!!!

Hahaha, but really i'm drawing a blank and need new material soon!

Laggin It & Getting Poked

My blog is so dead these days , it used to be everyday and now i never post.

Originally i stopped posting because i was writing everything down in another  place lol, but now im like damn girl you straight laggin on the vids and shit.

BUT! I will be posting here once a week and new video once a week or more if i can [exact days aren't set yet] but whatever i'm actually having a social life these days ;p

Well its 4am and i'm being poked by i don't even know what, i hope not a bug, and i'm going to try to sleep nite yall!

My Rules For Living

Rule #1: DON'T FALL IN LOVE
Rule #2: Always follow your dreams
Rule #3: Trust no one
Rule #4: Show confidence at all times,no matter what.
Rule #5: Do whatever it takes to get what you want
Rule #6: Always be the first to pull away from a kiss, no matter how steamy it gets.
Rule #7: Maintain inner peace
Rule #8: Be as kind as can be in regards to all lifeforms
Rule #9: Never sleep with a virgin
Rule #10: When you can't kill them with a smile, sharpen your tongue and let them have it.
Rule #11: Speak your mind and share every "worthless" magnificent thought your lovely head creates ;)
Rule #12: Your wants come before anyone elses
Rule #13: Never let them silence you
Rule #14: Go Out out on at least 3 proper dates with a guy before friend zoning him
Rule #15:DO NOT, I REPEAT DO NOT GIVE IT UP WITHOUT A FIGHT!!!
Rule #16: Let music be your saviour
Rule #17: Bros before Hoes.
Rule #18: Do not ever...EVER date younger than you.
Rule #19: YOU ARE ALWAYS UP FOR A FUN TIME!
Rule #20: Family first

Perfect Healthy Hair!

SO if you haven't seen my hair video here it is:

But I know I get a bit rambly (is that a word? Idk but whatever...) Anyways i tend to ramble on and on so here is every product i use and some steps to take to get your hair healthy, whether you've just died it, its heat damaged, or you just want your hair to be even more silky shiny and healthy (:

So here is a recap of everything i do to keep my hair soft and healthy:

1. Take cold/lukewarm showers, hot water = dry hair.
2. Use a hydrating shampoo and repairing conditioner. This depends on your hair type but look for shampoos and conditioners that are either hydrating, strengthening, or repairing.
3.  Don't wash your hair everyday, it needs natural oils to help it get strong and healthy and to grow. I wash my hair every other day, or 3 times a week.
4. Use a dry shampoo, there are tons i recommend using BEYOND THE ZONE, if you are just beginning try Tresemme its really easy to use and work your way up to dry powder or baby powder.
5. Use a deep conditioner after coloring your hair or after a week of intense heating tools.
6. Use the Aussie Deep conditioner at least once a week, it will work wonders!
7. Use split end menders to prevent split ends so your hair can retain more moisture.
8. Use a heat protecting oil or spray to protect your hair from the hot sun!
9. I FORGOT TO SAY THIS IN THE VIDEO BUT: make sure you are getting the proper vitamins, this can really affect hoe your hair grows. There are pills that are specifically meant for hair but make sure you are getting all you need.
10: I ALSO FORGOT THIS IN THE VIDEO BUT DO NOT BRUSH YOUR HAIR EXCESSIVELY IT LOOSENS THE ROOTS AND CAUSES HAIR TO FALL OUT

AND THIS TIP IS FOR GUY TOO:
TRY NOT TO USE AN EXCESS AMOUNT OF HAIRSPRAY OR GEL. This clogs the pores and causes hair loss and prevents hair growth.


Here are the products i use and show in the video [some of them weren't in the vid so i included pics]

Organix Shampoo & Conditioner in Moroccan Tree Oil and Argon Oil

John Freida Hydrating Shampoo and conditioner

Aussie 3 minute Miracle Deep Conditioning Treatment

Ion Deep Conditioner

Aussie Split End Protector

Garnier Sleek and Shine Humidity Protector

Heat Protecting Oil

OK you guys I hope that this all works for you and if it does then like my video or comment this blog and tell me what else works for you. Like i said in the video i will be doing a hair masque soon so stay tuned!

Much Love,

Lauren Nichole (: