So this is what it feels like...

I never thought my life would ever consist of " i miss yous" but it appears that the tides have turned and that's what goes on now, and I'm totally cool with that. Haha , ok more than that, but I can't show how hopeful I am now can I? I mean holding hands so isn't something I do, or cuddling, or kissing. Haha, I am not an affectionate person, at least not until now. I'm actually digging it. Like, seriously, I'm into it. No sarcasm intended, for once in my life haha. It feels so right it should be wrong, and I'm fighting the feeling. Trying to deny the fact that something good might possibly happen, because this is so much more than I'm used to. Pretty much the total package, something I am not and do not deserve. Nonetheless it's something that as of sometime yesterday or this morning, things are cloudy in my mind, is "all mines". Bleh, I'm that girl. Fuck. Never thought it would happen. Whatever I'm thinking about it too much, this is nothing serious and I plan on fully enjoying every bit of the adventure because, regardless of what my brain is saying, I've got a good thing going right now and I can't get enough.